Comments on: The more things change…

By: Louise

Louise — Fri, 25 Mar 2005 02:35:39 +0000

This sounds so much like where I was at, where I sometimes still am. I used to be afraid of talking about my plans — plans in 6 months, in 1 year, in 5 years. I was afraid I would jinx myself and the cancer would come back and all my plans would be dashed.

Recently I’ve started looking at it differently. I still make plans, and I think about how I will carry through with them even if the cancer comes back. I think about how I can shift things around so I have the energy to do what I need to and want to, even how I could organize my week with chemo and everything. For some strange reason, this makes me feel better.

Life never goes back to “before.” Even though I realized that, it took me awhile before I figured out how to make a new “now”. I am not explaining this well, but you will discover what you need to do, and things will get easier.

By: cancerbaby

cancerbaby — Wed, 23 Mar 2005 18:44:28 +0000

I’ve found that cancer has fundamentally changed who I am, and it also hasn’t, if you know what I mean. The period just after treatment ends is for many people the hardest — harder than diagnosis, harder than chemo It’s the ultimate Great Unknown, this watching and waiting. And you have to try to readjust to all the things in life that you did before with the knowledge of the Great Unknown breathing down your neck.

And you will. You are.

By: jawnbc

jawnbc — Tue, 22 Mar 2005 22:23:08 +0000

Maybe your 100% isn’t the same anymore. Not worse or better, different. And part of feeling 100% is doing stuff you used to do. But in steps, you love to gobble and you perhaps need to graze.

And you like change that you seek, choose and pursue. The existential shrieks come when you’re adapting to change on others’ (or the universe’s) terms. I think.